In 2016 I had two ideas that I wanted to work on. One idea was writing a book and the other was creating a blog. I started to write down ideas and started writing the book. A couple days later I stopped writing the book and moved on to writing a blog post. After days of getting frustrated of not being sure where to start, I gave up. I gave up on writing because I believed that people wouldn’t want to listen to what I had to say. I also didn’t think anyone would be interested in my book and I found ANOTHER project to work on. Overthinking, having doubt, anxiety, and fear was a STRUGGLE for me.
Have you ever tried to work on a project or idea, and you begin to work on it and then another idea forms and you leave the old project behind? Before you know it, you’re on your 5th project without having any other projects completed and you wasted time jumping from project to project. The demoralizing thing is that all that thinking was done but nothing came out of it.
Overthinking and not sticking to a plan was rough for me. Mentally, I felt like I would get into a maze of thoughts and continue to doubt myself and abilities. Additionally, the fear of me being a failure would kick in. I struggled with this for years of my life, but the fear would show a lot more whenever I would try to work on myself.
In March of 2020 things began to change for me. After work, I found myself sitting on the couch watching ESPN and Chopped on the T.V. I watched about 3 hours’ worth of episodes and a thought came to my mind. I thought to myself “How can I find it so easy to sit on the couch and watch other people live their dreams, but you can’t work and pursue yours?” That thought really resonated with me.
I turned off the T.V. and brainstormed what I wanted to do and got a plan written down. Soon after gaining the inspiration I needed to get started, I began to think about what happened last time, I tried to write a book and start a blog but failed. I felt the urges of trying to find a “better” plan, but quickly talked myself out of it and told myself that I will only go to another plan if this current plan does not work. As I am currently writing this blog post I am happy to report that I have written a novel that will be published in 2021 and I have multiple blog posts written!
Working on one plan and believing in myself helped me to move forward. Once I was on a roll and I was doing what I loved to do there was no looking back for me. I blocked out a lot of the outside noise and made some changes as to where I was devoting my time as well as the conversations I had.
Closing old chapters in our lives is needed sometimes. We do not have to live in fear, doubt, and anxiety. Sometimes the only thing holding us back is ourselves. I am happy to be able to share my journey and personal growth with you. I also hope that my new chapter in life inspires you to follow your dreams and do what you love to do.
“Our desires cannot outweigh our work ethic if we want to progress”
-C. Alex Thomas
Thank you for reading my post “Close Old Chapters and Start Writing a New One”. I hope that this blog post inspires you to not give up on your dreams or ideas. I knew if I didn’t find courage and began to believe in myself again, I wouldn’t be sharing this with you today. What were some of the struggles you've had and you were able to over come? What are some tips that you can share to help those who could be going through a similar situation as you were going through? Please comment below and share. If you like this post and it can help inspire someone please share. If you are new to Millennial Oaks please subscribe : ).